Victim of Love

The thoughts and prayers of a soul who deeply desires to Love God as He Himself desires to be Loved.

Friday, January 27, 2006

The Ardor of God's Love

O Jesus, how can I tell of your Love? The ardent desire You have to become one with each individual is beyond comprehension. You long with a great and burning desire for union with us. This longing causes You intense pain when You see that the soul chooses mere trifles instead of the overwhelming blessedness of becoming one with it's God. There is no spurned lover who can come close to the urgent longing of Love that You feel for each poor sinner who has turned away from the only thing that can bring him happiness ~ Your Divine Love. We were made to Love You and to be Loved by You. Every desire, every search for pleasure is a seeking for You alone. I must admit that to Love and be Loved by a creature is an awesome and beautiful thing, but it is nothing in comparison to the union and communion you desire to have with us. It is only a shadow compared to the Light, only a symbol compared to the only Reality there is... You are Love and to become one with this Love is the fulfillment of every hope and desire of every creature that has ever lived. Every beauty that I see is YOU, Every goodness that I perceive is YOU... You are ALL IN ALL.

Monday, January 23, 2006


It's been a long time since I've written, and I've been through alot lately. I've been through the "valley of the shadow of death" and have been shown even more than before that I am capable of the most sacriligeous and grievous sins possible. I've been tried by temptation and I must confess that I have done very poorly. What a weak and sinful nature I have! Capable of harming those I love most because of pride and selfishness. Capable of anything and everything! There is no perversion that is too low for me to fall into. There is no crime that has been committed that I cannot do worse. Dear God, you have given me the grace to know and love a most beautiful soul. I give that soul to you. Keep him under the shadow of your wings and guard him, Lord. Make him as innocent as the Lamb, as spotless as Christ Himself. I would die for him, dear Lord. I offer my life for the glory, joy, and sanctification of that precious soul.

"There is no greator love than to lay down one's life for one's friends."

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

St. Therese--Act of Oblation to Merciful Love: Q&A

Coming up in a few days is the feast of St. Therese of the Child Jesus and the Holy Face, the author of the Act of Oblation to Merciful Love. A great way to celebrate her feast day would be to make this offering to Merciful Love yourself. On her deathbed she begged Our Lord to choose many little "Victims of Love" and the most beautiful Little Catechism of the Offering to Merciful Love has been written. I encourage you to read it and then make the offering on October 1st. You will never regret it and many wonderful graces will come to you as a result. So go ahead and join the little legion of souls that has already offered themselves to Love, you have nothing to lose and Infinite Love to gain!

Friday, August 26, 2005

Feast of the Transverberation of St. Teresa of Avila

Today Carmelites around the world celebrate the feast of the Transverberation of St. Teresa of Avila, Virgin, and Reformer of the Carmelite Order. The transverberation is a mystical grace wherein the Saint's heart was pierced with a "dart of love" by an angel. I quote St. John of the Cross, "It will happen that while the soul is inflamed with the Love of God, it will feel that a seraph is assailing it by means of an arrow or dart which is all afire with love. And the seraph pierces and in an instant cauterizes this soul, which, like a red-hot coal, or better a flame, is already enkindled. The soul is converted into an immense fire of Love. Few persons have reached these heights."

Saint Teresa died in 1582 after proclaiming that she was "a daughter of the Church". Her body was buried in a wooden coffin. After nine months it was exhumed and to everyone's amazement, though her clothes were decaying, her body was incorrupt. While the Carmelite nuns reclothed her a delightful perfume spread throughout the monastery. Later, her heart was removed to be enclosed in a crystal vessel and placed in a jeweled silver reliquary. When this was being done they beheld a glorious and wonderful sight: a wound from the angel's dart was visible! It can still be seen today at the Carmelite Monastery of Alba de Tormes in Spain. Her heart has kept it's color and since the nineteenth century three sharp thorns are visible at the base of the heart.

In the Liturgy for today's feast, the hymn for Evening Prayer is as follows:

Mild messenger of heaven's high King,
Forth from home's sheltering walls you set:
'Christ to the Pagan's land I'll bring
Or die a martyr!' - Ah, not yet: (as a child she set out on foot for Africa, being impatient to see God. She wanted to die a martyr at the hands of the Moors. Fortunately, her Uncle found her and brought her home.)

A sweeter pain, a death more dear
Must win for you a wider fame;
No mortal hand's to wield the spear
That kindles your consuming flame.

Victim of God's unbounded Love,
Let our heart's burn with like desire;
Lead all your retinue above
That none may taste eternal fire.

Jesu, celestial choirs adore
You, Bridegroom of all virgins pure,
And wedding-songs unceasing pour
While endless ages shall endure.

For further reading I recommend The Life of St Teresa by Herself, The Way of Perfection by St. Teresa of Avila, The Interior Castle by St. Teresa of Avila, and The Collected Letters of St. Teresa of Avila. All of these can be purchased at the Institute for Carmelite Studies... (just google it.)

Jesus, You want your Spirit of Love to blaze like fire throughout the world; may we, like Saint Teresa, be instrumental in keeping that flame of love alight.

You sanctify Your friends and reveal to them the mysteries of Your heart; unite our hearts to yours in a friendship so close and intimate that we may experience the secrets of Your Love, proclaim it to others, and win them to you.

You blessed the pure of heart and promised that they would see You; purify our sight so that we may see you in all things, and through all things be close to You.

You oppose the proud and give wisdom to the simple; make us humble of heart, so that we may receive Your wisdom for the sake of the Church. ~ Intercessions from the Carmelite Proper of the Liturgy of the Hours

Friday, August 19, 2005

The Father's Love Letter

Let the God the Father speak to your heart in this video called The Father's Love Letter. The words are totally taken from the Word of God that pierces more surely than a two-edged sword. This is just beautiful - it spoke to me in a personal way and it will to you too if you open your heart and become like a little child.

It only takes about 5 minutes...

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

He Walked a Mile in Your shoes...

Are you suffering from weakness, fatigue? Jesus did too.
Are you rejected by family and friends? Jesus was too.
Are you lonely? Jesus was too.
Are you grieving for a loved one who died? Jesus did too.
Do people think you're crazy? They thought Jesus was too.
Are you suffering from temptations? Jesus did too.
Are you hungry or thirsty? Jesus was too.
Are you cold? Jesus was too.
Are you suffering from the heat? Jesus did too.
Do you feel sorrow for those who are suffering? Jesus did too.
Are you crying for someone who has turned away from the truth and has listened to lies?
Jesus cried too.
Did your friends disappear when times got tough? Jesus' friends did too.
Was one of your closest loved ones unfaithful to you? Jesus' too.
Did you ask someone not to tell and they did anyway? Jesus too.
Did you help someone and receive no thanks in return? Jesus too.
Do you feel like God has abandoned you? Jesus did too.

Jesus, the Eternal Son of the Father, suffered all these things for Love of you; He walked a mile in your shoes.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Eternal Love

During the rosary today I was thinking how awesome God is. He's ETERNAL. That's something that can make your head hurt, to think that He had no beginning, but always was and always will be. And since He's perfect and all-knowing that means that for all eternity, before the world was made, He knew you and loved you. Isn't that overwhelming? I encourage you to meditate on it for a few days and come back to it often. It's a thought that can last a lifetime. I've been thinking about it for a few weeks and it just gets more and more beautiful. And then to think that this Eternal, Divine Being created us with a free will so that we could choose to Love Him in return. You see, if He hadn't given us free will (the ability to choose between good and evil) then we wouldn't be able to freely Love Him. We would be like puppets or a robot that's been programmed to obey and serve someone. He didn't want it that way, but gave us the awesome responsibility to choose. We have a choice and are free to choose to Love our Creator (who Loves us with a Love so great that we can't comprehend it), or to reject His Love. Of course, He knew that giving us the ability to choose would open the way to evil and suffering, but all suffering comes from man and his sin, not from God. So many people question why there is suffering in the world and even have the nerve to blame God for it. But there's no one to blame but ourselves. Every bit of suffering on this earth is the fruit of our sinful choices or the choices of our ancestors, all the way back to our first parents, Adam and Eve. It is sin that brought sickness, suffering, and death into the world. But wait!! There's more!!! Because man chose to sin and lost eternal joy and glory because of it - this Almighty, Eternal, All-Powerful, All-Knowing, All-Loving, Divine Being who made us didn't want us to be lost forever. So He became man Himself... He clothed His Divinity in flesh and came on this earth to suffer hunger, thirst, weariness, pain, humiliation, etc. All the things He had never and would never have felt in His heavenly glory... And not only to suffer, but to DIE! So that we could get to heaven and rejoice with Him for all eternity! WHAT LOVE AND MERCY! Think about it. Remember always that God Loves you as if you were the only person in the world and He would have done it all just for you. This is a truth that so many people don't know about. We must Love Him for those who choose not to. We must Love Him greatly... with His own Love...therefore we can Love Him INFINITELY!!! We are called to Love Him and what glory will be ours when we get to heaven! We will see all those who went to heaven because of our Love! We will have numberless children in heaven who would have been lost forever but are there for all eternity only because we chose to Love this God who is so Loveable! My heart beats fast and hard when I think of it! I want you to know what I know, I want you to Love Him as I do! (Or rather, as I DESIRE to do; for I don't Love Him enough.)

I will leave you with a little story told by St. Alphonsus Liguori that I read at the beginning of my conversion over ten years ago and it has stayed fresh in my memory ever since:

"We read in history of a proof of love so prodigious that it will be the admiration of all ages: There once was a king, lord of many kingdoms, who had one only son, so beautiful, so holy, so amiable, that he was the delight of his father, who loved him as much as himself. This young prince had a great affection for one of his slaves; so much so that, the slave having been condemned to death, the prince offered to die for the slave; the father, being jealous of justice, was satisfied to condemn his beloved son to death, in order that the slave might remain free from the punishment that he deserved ; and thus the son died a criminal's death, and the slave was free from punishment.

This fact, the like we have never seen in this world, and never will happen, is related in the Gospels, where we read that the Son of God, the Lord of the Universe, seeing that man was condemned to eternal death in punishment for his sins, chose to pay by His death the penalty due to man."

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

St. Maria Goretti, pray for us!

October 16, 1890 - July 6, 1902

Saint Maria Goretti was martyred in defense of the virtue of purity. To read more about her go to The above painting is how she actually looked. May she intercede for our world today and help young women to remain pure and modest. May she reveal to us the beauty of true femininity.